Tuesday, March 31, 2020

What I needed someone to tell me 1 - Suicide is Easier



Suggested Ambience: Apocryphos, Kammarheit, Atrium Carceri - A Lonely Strain


Suicide is easier when you've had a bad day.
Suicide is easier when you've had a few beers.
Suicide is easier when you stop thinking about what could have been and just keep thinking about what happened. Those things that you wish didn't happen, but you can't change.
Suicide is easier when you are walking through the night alone on your way home from the bar.
Suicide is easier when you see the many car lights headed your way and one small motion to the left or right could be the end.
Suicide is easier when you hate what the world sees you as and the way people talk and you're just so sick and tired of dealing with everything.
Suicide is easier when the world and what it offer's is no longer appealing to you no matter what you do.
Suicide is easiest when you curl up inside your pain and just hate everything.
Suicide is easiest when you stop thinking and feel too much.

Suicide is permanent and feelings are temporary. Thoughts are temporary.
The future is unknown and the answers to all your problems could be just around the corner.

And what about that kid who doesn't know the way to achieve the things they dream of? It might be inside of you, ending when you end. Where will they go? Will you let those answers disappear into the hood of a car or the depths of a river?
Suicide is easy, but life is full of glorious discovery, no matter what you feel right now.

Wait and see.